'sensex crosses 9000'
'how does this affect to me??'
'it does not. but there are many things which affect me indirectly'
'there are many thing like this'
'it does not put merit on the things which we talk about or which we do not……
If we look on things with a broader (I would say when lines are not there) perspective it does not make sense whether we are talking about this thing or that…
But honestly speaking I did not send you sent you mail with that perspective in mind. It was just a pretty happiness (happiness which was based on false….)
Which sprung out of my neuronal reactions which make my existence itself meaningless (hence the things I do).'
'nervous break down'

apreciating so called beauty,
germinated on fertility of deads...
all leads to insanity....
germinated on fertility of deads...

who made them like this.....i don't think they ever wanted to be like this.who wants to be just a fantacy of others world.....we never asked them....they never revolted....they are beautiful?...or we made them beautiful.....'beauty' is most wrongly valued word in the world..........................

i did not want to get up..but i did...i did not want to come here...but i am here.....
who says this is me???? i wonder i am i??? i am not disowning my body..........but
i don't want to continue with this.......i wonder i am i???

i saw you today without words....i liked you...i wanted to touch you......
people will say you are not beautiful.......who are they.....i want to touch you.....

words speaking to words......

i am never happy with language...... distorts my thought;
killer in the books;
and we embrace him;
we love death;
knowingly or unknowingly;
we love the death and we love to kill;
knowingly or unknowingly;